Wedding Plans

Miss K is getting another Uncle! My baby sister is getting married! (I say baby... she's only 2 years younger than me.)

(Did he do good or what?!)

I am so excited for her! She is my only sister, and I am so excited that she finally found someone. She's defiantly been through the ringer in the boyfriend department (haven't most?). I haven't talked about my sister much here. She moved two states away two days after she graduated from High School, that was 6 years ago. We are still very close, but the physical distance means that we are not as involved in each other lives as we would like to be. 

She has asked me to be a bridesmaid at her wedding. I am so excited to help her, and make sure that she gets all the things she wants for her wedding. I learned my lesson planning my own wedding, and maybe some of the things that I learned can help her.

The other night we got online together and looked at wedding dresses and bridesmaid dresses. Just to get an idea of what she liked, and what she was thinking. And I quizzed her a little about what she was thinking she wanted for the ceremony (it won't be a Temple Wedding, I don't even know if her Fiancé has any kind of religious preference) and the reception. 

While we were doing all of this tonight, I thought to myself... what if I am pregnant at her wedding? She doesn't know when she wants to do it yet, and she has a lot of things to consider. I told her that I was honestly hoping that I was. I don't mind being pregnant, I'm not worried about having a baby belly or anything like that, (I actually think that I looked pretty cute while I was pregnant) but it changes how I prepare for my part in her wedding. And no matter what I want to be able to help her as much as I can. This is going to be interesting. For now I am not going to worry about it too much, she doesn't even have a date yet. I am going to do everything I can to help my sister with her perfect day!

And then I thought... what if I'm not?

Unfortunately my mind has now set itself a "goal" for when I should be pregnant. I didn’t want to do that! I am trying so hard to not let this overtake me again. I think that having these thoughts is normal, I feel like I need to be prepared for it, either way. But I don’t want to feel that feeling of failure again. And I for sure don’t want to be thinking about that during my sister’s wedding! I’m a work in progress. I am going to do my best to focus on her, and her day, and her happiness.